…I’m the second “captain” of my ship…

After almost two weeks of dilly-dallying, I finally muster enough resolve to drag myself out of bed this morning when my alarm buzz off. Yes, I went out for my usual morning run.

I take  time to take a shower then get dressed. It felt good to put on my shoes again. Much more so since it was just washed recently. It feels like I’m putting on a brand new pair. How’s that for motivation.

I was smiling to myself when I stepped on the track. Good thing it was dark. People might think I’m not of sound mind .  I looked around for a moment, taking in the somewhat familiar surrounding. I proceeded to my favorite spot and deposited my bag.

I’m too excited to get going that I forgo doing the same stretching routine that I usually do. After I clipped on my earphones and heard the intro of Black Eyed Peas’ “Meet Me Halfway”, I was off, running. I’m happy to be out there. Glad I did not let my laziness get the best of me. I started perspiring. The light morning breeze has a soothing effect.

At first, while I pushed my legs forward, I was not thinking of anything at all. I was just happy to be out again, after such a long time of hibernation. I get to look  at the sky again, littered with stars. There was some clouds present and I thought that it might rain. Fortunately, it did not.

I just realized that I can not turn my back on running, for good. For one, it’s only during this time, that I get to enjoy my time outside, alone. No pressure. And it is also during this time that I get to beat myself up and rise again. Not to mention the glorious morning sky.

Pain will always be there. I can’t take cover from it forever. Whether I choose to run or not, I will experience pain either way. Might just as well embrace it.

As for conjuring up excuses not to run, well, I’m guilty of that. They ranged from sleeping in because I switched off my alarm to fear of stray dogs I usually meet on the street ( so lame ).

My run this morning has shown me what I missed for all those days I stayed dormant. I’m back and hopefully, for a very long time.

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